18 Jan Ashlee Lunds
I have always been athletic, weights was my favorite class in high school. It wasn’t until my sophomore year of college when I lost my athletic scholarship and had to go back home that I started putting weight on.
I was discouraged, my mind became my worst enemy. I hated the mirror because all I saw was a failure. It took me a year before I realized that I couldn’t keep living like that and I drank some pool chemical that was poisoned. I attempted suicide at the age of 19. You couldn’t possibly understand until you’ve been there.
When your mind is that dark, it takes time to get back to normal. But I decided I wanted to feel better. I started slow but worked my way back to the gym and back to what I loved. I know what it feels like to hate yourself or to feel unmotivated which is why I want to inspire people. I couldn’t jog a mile without gasping for air but last year I ran a half a marathon and trained/ competed in a bikini competition, and want to run a full marathon this year.
People notice these things, they notice motivation and dedication. They look up to me and I want to be an inspiration, always. People have asked for my workouts countless times and there is nothing more satisfying then knowing you’re inspiring others.
I’m no where near where I want to be fitness wise, I don’t wake up everyday with the rocky soundtrack playing, killing my workouts. We’re human, WE ARE ALLOWED TO STRUGGLE. You can’t let the struggle define who you are and that is something I cannot teach but want to help people understand.
I want people to understand that everything you do comes from your mind and without a positive mind you won’t get far. That is why I am in nursing, that is why I volunteer on weekends, that is why I smile at 5am when scanning people into the gym.
One positive thought is all it takes to change a life. I am proof of that.